I thought I would start this project once I left England to go on my travels, but something tells me to begin now; while I’ve got time to think about the year coming to a close, and what’s to come.
I am feeling a strong desire to put my thoughts down into a letter to remind myself of what I am going through right now and therefore, have it to look back on when I’m on the other side of this process.
I’ve been buying stationery and ephemera from creator and photographer, Tina Sosna for a little while now. It’s so easy to be charmed by her stunning prints, handmade stationery, and packages that have an ethereal, nature-themed/forest-dreamer feel to them (check out her treasures here). And just recently I thought I’d have a quick browse of her latest pretties. I fell in love with this bear letter set straight away. It’s so perfect for me right now. Instantly, it had me dreaming of where I wish to be and what I have to cope with in order to get there. And so, I decided I’d treat myself to this letter set, and instead of using it to write to pen pals, this time, I’d keep it for myself (selfish me!).
And so, I begin, the first Letter From My Wiser Self…
…18th December 2015
“Dear Stephanie,
You are in the process of changing yourself, and have many blocks yet to clear. Recently, you have finally felt the call to get yourself physically well. You want to be in your prime, to be fit, strong and healthy. You dream of hiking trails, venturing through cities, vast terrains, up mountains, towards growth. And the kindest thing you can do for yourself in this moment, is work on you. You have a vision of yourself, of a capable you, crossing paths and trekking across Mother Earth, to heighten your healing. You want to take in and marvel at all that reminds you of how small you are in this world, but how powerful one human like you can be. You wish to smell foreign flowers, touch different soil with your feet, place your hands on various trees and connect with animals you’ve never encountered before. To be kissed by nature will free you, and in turn, you’ll release those thoughts that you’ve been holding onto: “I’m not able”, “I need to do better”, “I’m not doing enough”, “I’m not good enough yet”.
You’re holding back on writing, you know you are. You wish you could do more, but for some reason, you can’t. You’re doing what you love, and it’s all you’ve ever wanted, but why in this moment in time are you feeling blocked? Why are you putting it off? You feel you haven’t reached your full potential, but you have to remember, you’re doing what you can with what you have at this point in time. More is to come, plenty more is to come. You see yourself with your notebook in hand, pouring everything you have onto the page. There is so much to be written and you’re desperate to get it done, but you must keep telling yourself that you will, in your own way, and in the way the universe has planned for you. Nothing is wrong with you, but all is not entirely well in your spirit. You’ve been a little blue, a little lethargic and fed up with your current state. Work on making yourself happy, find that balance you yearn for, that freedom, that strength, and do it in the way that is most meaningful to you…
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